Struggling with my weight

Well I have a nice body or at least I had a good body.I ate very little and could suppress my appetite but then I turned 13 and problems just came knocking on my door.So I started eating a little bit more that what I was used to but with time came more problems, more problems means more food and more food means more and more pounds.Now I am not fat but my body is not what it used to be.I am no longer the girl who had a nice body.
I did say that I started eating more because I had a lot of problems, but with time those problems were more or less solved.That didn't stop me from eating.I started eating out of habit and sometimes because I was bored and needed something to pass the time.
Today I decided  to go on a diet, well it's not really a diet I just wanna start eating like I used to.Summer is coming and I am ashamed to show my body in public,at the pool or at the beach. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
Hugs and kisses,
           Twisted Angel

Is this love that I am feeling?

Love. Nobody understands it and I am not an exception, but I want to fall in love.Why because you are happy and that is something I have not been for a while. I think i may be falling in love with my best friend. He is great and funny and he treats me right but there is one problem, my cousin.She loves him so much and she thinks that they are made for eachother.She does not have ANY chance with him and I know what I am talknig about. Why?Because I don't think even I stand a chance.Every time I am onlline he writes something so yesterday I asked him if he has I girlfriend or even a girl he likes.He didn't want to tell me, but I am pretty sure he likes me. So guys what do you think I shoud do?Do I tell my cousin first or do I check my chances and then talk to her? Or shoud I just forget about him?
Lots of hugs and kisses,
   Twisted Angel       

You need to fall so you can enjoy the top

Well this is my first post in a while and I am really sorry I hope that this host is going to be so good that you will forget all about it.

Sometime I feel so alone. I don't mind it most of the time but when I look at photos of the way I was, the happy old me and nothing can stop me think. I loved that I always had someone to listen , a person to trust but time showed that that person didn't deserve that trust. I had a lot of friends, but none understood me and all showed how much they cared about me. When I look at thoes photos I know how much I have truly changed this summer or just how much it has changed me. Half of the days of that summer I spent being sad and feeling sorry for my self. I thought that I lost something so precious that I will never find it again. So I will dedicate this blog post to the angels that helped me to get on my feet. Those angels were all around me and I didn't notice they and for that I am really sorry. One of those angels listened to me and I know that he will always be with me.  I think that he has helped  with getting back  on my feet. The second angel was always with me and never stopped beliving in me. Than you for opening my eyes. Life isn't always they way it seems. Maybe it took me a while but I like the way I am.  The  only chage is that  now I see things like they are. Little things don't get to me any more. You need to fall so you can enjoy the top.

With lots or love ans lots of kisses,
                         Twisted Angel