Struggling with my weight

Well I have a nice body or at least I had a good body.I ate very little and could suppress my appetite but then I turned 13 and problems just came knocking on my door.So I started eating a little bit more that what I was used to but with time came more problems, more problems means more food and more food means more and more pounds.Now I am not fat but my body is not what it used to be.I am no longer the girl who had a nice body.
I did say that I started eating more because I had a lot of problems, but with time those problems were more or less solved.That didn't stop me from eating.I started eating out of habit and sometimes because I was bored and needed something to pass the time.
Today I decided  to go on a diet, well it's not really a diet I just wanna start eating like I used to.Summer is coming and I am ashamed to show my body in public,at the pool or at the beach. I will keep you posted on how it goes.
Hugs and kisses,
           Twisted Angel

Is this love that I am feeling?

Love. Nobody understands it and I am not an exception, but I want to fall in love.Why because you are happy and that is something I have not been for a while. I think i may be falling in love with my best friend. He is great and funny and he treats me right but there is one problem, my cousin.She loves him so much and she thinks that they are made for eachother.She does not have ANY chance with him and I know what I am talknig about. Why?Because I don't think even I stand a chance.Every time I am onlline he writes something so yesterday I asked him if he has I girlfriend or even a girl he likes.He didn't want to tell me, but I am pretty sure he likes me. So guys what do you think I shoud do?Do I tell my cousin first or do I check my chances and then talk to her? Or shoud I just forget about him?
Lots of hugs and kisses,
   Twisted Angel       

You need to fall so you can enjoy the top

Well this is my first post in a while and I am really sorry I hope that this host is going to be so good that you will forget all about it.

Sometime I feel so alone. I don't mind it most of the time but when I look at photos of the way I was, the happy old me and nothing can stop me think. I loved that I always had someone to listen , a person to trust but time showed that that person didn't deserve that trust. I had a lot of friends, but none understood me and all showed how much they cared about me. When I look at thoes photos I know how much I have truly changed this summer or just how much it has changed me. Half of the days of that summer I spent being sad and feeling sorry for my self. I thought that I lost something so precious that I will never find it again. So I will dedicate this blog post to the angels that helped me to get on my feet. Those angels were all around me and I didn't notice they and for that I am really sorry. One of those angels listened to me and I know that he will always be with me.  I think that he has helped  with getting back  on my feet. The second angel was always with me and never stopped beliving in me. Than you for opening my eyes. Life isn't always they way it seems. Maybe it took me a while but I like the way I am.  The  only chage is that  now I see things like they are. Little things don't get to me any more. You need to fall so you can enjoy the top.

With lots or love ans lots of kisses,
                         Twisted Angel 

A night out with the populars!!!

Last night I went to a friend of mine(she is older then me but she treats me like i am her age) and she asked me if i wanted to go out with her.The first few minutes I asked myself why would she want me to go out with her friends but still i decided to go.I went home, got ready and went back at her place.Because she is popular I ended up gonig out with the most popular people in the school (too bad that they are going to be high school so we won't be able to see eachother so finally I will earn some respect with the bitches in my class). It was great and I think i made new friends.
With love,
Twisted Angel

I know we don't need boyfriends so why do we take their s*it?

I was at a birthday at my friends house( she is i high school ) and all of my crushes friends were there ( the popular kids ). It was just like any birthday where everyone is 2-3 years older than me ( OK this time it was better ).After that the boy went home and only the girls were left.And then they started commenting some stuff that i did not see about their exes and i thought:
-Is this like it is going to be when I will brake up with my boyfriend( I don't have one yet )?I mean we all know that girls are better than boys and all the time we make the compromises and not them?We are always second and they are first?If I get a boyfriend an he treats me like some of my friends ex threats them I will break up with him and get a ten times better one?
GIRLS RULE, BOYS ARE STUPID WHEN IT COMES TO DATING!
Comment back:If your boyfriend treats you badly will you take his s*it?If yes, why?
With love,
Twisted Angel

ATTENTION Do you like geting it?

I know I do!I love getting attention but unfortunately i don't get as much as i would like to get.
Today it was Easter and my family and i were having lunch(my mum, dad, brother , granmother and father, my aunt, uncle and my cousins).We had lunch and everything was normal.After lunch my little cousin and I were playing whit a ball and as i trough it it landed in my grandmas cake!It was all my fault!I went back inside and though:
-I love getting attention, but from all the kids(teens) in my family i get less( that is what I think ).My brother is doing really really well at college, my older first cousin is really funny and my younger first cousin is really funny, too!And that leaves me...I don't know if I am special in some way.I get the less attention in my family, maybe that is because that is because except studying I am not gifted fore anything else?Or maybe not?Will that ever change?
Comment back: who gets the most attention in your family?You or your sis or brother?
With love,
Twisted Angel

The first post on my blog!

First i must welcome you to my blog!I hope you have a fun time reading it.It will me my blog/diary basically a place were I can post my thoughts and share some good or bad days!My blog is still new there will be a lot of new stuff and i hope you like it!
With love,
Twisted Angel